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I haven't been doing my taper like I should. BF is freaking out because I'm leaving for 4 days. I'm somber, have been doing BARE MINIMUM pills and the mindfuck is worse than the getting sick. Guilt, restlessness, fear, self-degradation, etc. etc.

I forgot about this part and the chills part too. I'm sure I can muscle through it but it would be great to have SOME SUPPORT.

Am supposed to see BF tonight but would rather go to a meeting. I work in Meeting Central (SOMA/S.F.) so I bet I can sneak out to one some time during work today.

E-mailed partner's doctor today and am waiting for what advice he has and is willing to give me. He's one of the top opiate addiction researchers in the area. I hope he can give me some professional advice, because I don't know if steeping off where I am is such a great thing for me to take on right now. Bottom line is I'd rather wait a few more weeks than risk a RELAPSE.

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